Thursday, July 19, 2007

a pet peeve

so yesterday i was watching a soap opera -- all my children, and only because there's nothing else to do in between when i wake up (noon-ish) and when i leave for work (2/230ish) -- and i saw something that irritates me in a lot of movies/shows. this guy whose name i never caught, so we'll call him bob, and this girl whose name i also didnt catch, so we'll call her shanaenae, were having a conversation about how bob used to be in love with lily but is now sleeping with ava. meanwhile, he's protesting that he's not just sleeping with her, he's completely in love with her, and he's sorry to hurt lily but he really loves ava. and shanaenae is all, but can you honestly say you don't love lily anymore? and he goes, no. i still love lily. and meanwhile, ava has shown up in the background -- skulking, perhaps, although it seemed she just was coming home/wherever they were (a dock.. why, i don't know -- i've only seen this show like twice before) and came upon them. so she's listening in from the beginning of shanaenae's question, and she hears bob's answer, or at least up until that period, where he paused, and she gets all huffy and walks away. meanwhile, bob continued, ..but not as a husband. i love her as a friend. i'm in love with ava.

so. clearly, if ava hadn't gotten all upset, she would have heard the rest, and they could have avoided the drama that will no doubt stalk the rest of the season as bob doesn't know why ava doesn't like him anymore and ava wreaks revenge on bob for dissing her, which he didn't actually do. hell, they could probably get a couple seasons out of that -- she tries to run him off the road, he tries to win her back, she tries to stab him, he tries to win her back, she sleeps with his best friend, he tries to win her back, she gets pregnant with best friend's baby, he steals said baby (cause now he's just pissed off, he's done trying), ...... etc. and while i understand that drama is essential for any entertainment, this irritates me. mainly because honestly, if you walked up and people were talking about you -- specifically a loaded question like hey is the person you love in love with you? -- would you HONESTLY walk away without listening to the rest of the conversation?? who walks away in the middle?? i'd stand there until they stopped talking, or at least until they stopped talking about me. and in which case, i would have heard the answer, and i'd have been happy.

stupid ava. and stupid bob. that's a failure answer on a soap opera! i mean come on, that's asking for trouble.

..yeah, i know, i'm new at watching soap operas. but i think this is why i normally don't. although it's also possible it's because some are just ridiculously silly, cause i saw snatches of another one that had some guy meeting his father for the first time, but we never saw his face, and he had a mask similar to the guy on nip/tuck's, and some weird voice, and a red glittery shirt with long red fingernails (yeah, a guy). and he was all, 'but you saw me, mom. when i get upset.. i even tried to kill you!' and she's all, 'but i forgive you honey. come meet your father.' and it was very weird. and i think that's odd.. are they really hurting for plot lines? cause that's an outlandish, ridiculous plot line, and i only saw like 3 minutes of it.

maybe that's what i should do -- i'll go write for a soap opera. i'll just think of the most irritating and annoying ways possible to stretch every possible thing out as long as possible. i'll just think, hey, what would make me want to tear my hair out as a solution to this problem? and presto, i'd have a script. seriously, i think i'd be brilliant at it. i can bs with the best of them, and isn't that all you need for a soap script? pffft. i'd have them all eating out of my palms.

...muahahah?

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

and i saw God cry in the reflection of my enemies

(for the curious, that's a line from a fall out boy song (golden) that's stuck in my head.)

so i was just perusing facebook and saw a fellow classics major's page, and she had pics up from her graduation this year, and one of them had my favorite professor in them. he didn't come to my graduation, i think cause he had to go be with his sister or something, but either way it was a little sad for me. i had him for 7 classes, and he was my advisor for my classics major, and just a good guy in general. maybe i'll photoshop the pictures so it looks like he and i are in one, hahah. it's just crappy seeing him all dressed up for graduation and there when i didn't get that at mine.

but in good news, my bathing suit fits, and i am liking it. i'm glad we went with that one, and i'm glad we went with red. i am liking the red! i am actually sort of excited to wear it, minus the fact that it's a bathing suit and i am not bathing-suit-ready, haha. i like the back, i like the design, i wish more suits out there were like that. i am so tired of boring bathing suits, and i feel that a lot of other women are as well. maybe i'll start a bathing suit clothing line, haha. how sweet would that be? except i'd always just go look at the speedo web site and be like oh, i like that.. and copying isn't designing. fail!

i don't have too much to say today. i am just trying to get through the week.. vacation starts friday! we still have two hours left today, and i have already done the state page, and i have nothing else to do, so i'm pretty fairly bored. tomorrow is thursday and that is when i do my sunday pages, so i can waste a good chunk of time doing that.. and then friday i have to be the new britain city editor, which sucks. i don't want to! i want to be done at 10 and leave so i can go up to new hampshire. but their deadline is 11, so i may be here til 10:30 or 11, which sucks! aww crap plus i gotta web the stories, which i hate doing, it's annoying. bah. plus my coworker is being.. less than pleasant, you could say. although today we haven't spoken a word, so i guess that's fine too, ahha. at least then i don't have to listen to her hypocrisy. i hate it when people are so quick and easy to criticize other people and then can't take it when they get criticized. it just .. sticks in my craw. hah. so yeah. work. sucks. i want the next two days to be over so i can be going to nh and leeeaving ct and relaxing and not thinking and just having fun and hanging out with my family. i love my family, i really do.

i'm so excited they're all going to be there. i will probably feel differently about my bathing suit once OTHER people besides me see it, especially my brother's girlfriend. i like her, i really do, but she is the epitome of ...everything. she is short and blonde and skinny and alternately adorable and hot, and i feel sort of like an ogre when i stand next to her. oof. but the important thing is she is actually really nice, and funny, and i like her, and she seems good for my brother. i'll just wear a towel all the time.. haha.

apparently the dresses are in for the wedding, my dad's fiancee went to pick them up. for those who don't know, mine is this one: http://www.dessy.com/index.cfm?go=dresses&style=2046 in spruce. (you can see the style better if you make it a lighter color.) it's a little bit more of a teal than an emerald like it shows on the screen.. just a bit more blue than green, but still greenish. i apparently need to go out and find about 7 different undergarments for it, which is.. not exciting. but my dad's fiancee did send me some money for it, so that's nice. but does anyone have any suggestions for where i should go? i'm new at this sort of girly thing. speaking of new at girly, i'm also getting my hair did for this thing -- for the first time ever. or i guess technically the trial run will be the first time ever, and that is on sept. 15, which is 5 days before my birthday, so i am trying to get someone to take me out since i'll be all did up. oof. i hope it's not anything too fancy/hairspray-y. i don't want a helmet of hair. they were talking at the dress store about doing it half up, leaving most of it down and wavy, so that i am totally fine with. i just don't want that hard, crusty look that sometimes happens when people get their hair did. my hair's soft, and i like it that way, damnit. plus whenever it gets like that it always looks like it's really tight, like it hurts a lot. and i'm all about booing that. but i guess we'll see when the time comes, eh?

in randomly unrelated to anything news, i think i want "when i get where i'm going" (brad paisley) played at my funeral.. i just really like the song. the beginning goes..
when i get where i'm going, on the far side of the sky
the first thing that i'm gonna do, is spread my wings and fly
i'm gonna land beside a lion, and run my fingers through his mane
or i might find out what it's like, to ride a drop of rain
and it keeps going (http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/bradpaisley/whenigetwhereimgoing.html), and i just really like the whole idea -- chorus:
yeah when i get where i'm going
there'll be only happy tears
i will shed the sins and struggles
i have carried all these years
and i'll leave my heart wide open
i will love and have no fear
yeah when i get where i'm going
don't cry for me down here
..of course, i am sure it will make people cry, because it would make me cry if i heard it at a funeral, but i think it would be a sweet cry.
i have also decided that i want people to write down one song that reminds them of me, and then i want someone to make it into a cd. and people can buy the cd for like $5, which will go to a charity i haven't chosen yet cause i just started thinking about this today when i filled out a myspace survey that asked what song you want played at your funeral. i might change my mind about the brad paisley song, cause i'm sure it's probably overdone, but it's all i can think of right now, and i do like it. besides, it's country, and people can have a bittersweet laugh over how i'm laughing my ass off at all of them having to listen to country, cause mostly everyone i know hates country.

and now that i've been somewhat morbid and managed to solidly waste 30 minutes, i still have another hour and a half to go, so i am going to go write my mom an email and then go back to abandondedbutnotforgotten.com. oiy. i wish i could just go home already!

Monday, July 16, 2007

me + blogging = not exciting

so i clearly fail at this blog thing, since i haven't updated in quite awhile. to be fair, they've actually made me DO stuff at work lately. and since i don't have the internet at home, that leaves me with the options of 1) staying longer at work and 2) not posting. i chose option 2, mainly because i never want to be here longer than i have to be here, and since they don't seem to care if we peace out right after the paper's done, regardless, then i'm OUT. woot. so yeah. i know. excuses excuses. i apologize to all of my loyal readers (kate still being one, she reassured me today, and sami and victoria also ones, i was previously reassured), and i will try to post more.

this past weekend was mostly nice but sorta eh. we went to a hibachi grill place on saturday night, which means it was one of those places where you sit around a grill and they cook up your food right there for you. and our chef was really fun, he told jokes and did little magic tricks and stuff. some of them were easy but others i had no idea how he did. but the fried rice was freaking amazing, and the veggies & steak were good too. it was a lot of fun. and then we went to see harry pothead, and i loved it. particularly rupert grint, because he is adorable and i heart him. i thought book 5 was unnecessarily long, and it's actually my least favorite book. but i thought they did a superb job of cutting out all of the angsty, angry, depressing nonsense and getting to the point and the good stuff without missing that it's all still sullen and angsty. frankly, i kind of thought harry was annoying in that book, but he didn't turn out that way in the movie, which made me happy. either way, LOVED it. i'm feeling a little sad because the new book comes out on the 21st, and that is my first day of vaca -- we are leaving i think friday night, which means i'll be up in a fabulous and sort of quaint resort town on saturday. and we'll probably be going to a HUGE craft fair that they set up in town that weekend, and as much as i love it, i just don't foresee anyone selling hp books at said craft sale, nor do i foresee any of the little shops -- while adorable and cute -- selling hp books either. which means i'd have to drive to a real town, however far that may be, and buy the book, and then spend the next day or two immersed in harry potter goodness. which sounds nice, but also seems rude, and non-perfect, because part of the reason i am so excited for vaca is because it is with my dad & brother, both of whom i don't tend to see for more than two hours at a time lately. so diving headfirst into a book seems like the not-best plan i could have, so i may have to wait til we get home. which kinda sucks cause i want to read the book, but i've waited this long, so i suppose i can wait another week.

on the plus side, my bathing suit is in! this has been a big fiasco. i couldn't find any suits i liked in stores -- all i could find were boring, look-down-the-beach-and-see-an-80-year-old-wearing-it suits, and that's not really the look i'm going for. it's hard to find a happy medium between teensy bikini and long-sleeved one-piece. so. i resorted to the speedo website, because speedo usually has suits i like. they are patterned in fun designs instead of the normal diagonal colored and/or gold lines/plain suits you see in stores, and they usually have an interesting t-back or racing back or just something other than a back that comes up to your shoulder blades.. i don't want a tube as a bathing suit. so i went to the web site, and they had a huge selection, so i was all excited, and they even have a little "try it on" model thingy that i was like pffft at first cause it's like a 15-year-old, but then i found out you can personalize your model -- put in your height, weight, hair color, skin color, body type, etc. so i was even more excited! and i had it down to a few suits, and i went to check my bank account to see if i could afford to order two and send one back (i was nervous about them fitting), and lo and behold, i am in the negative. i had apparently done some creative math (ironically, it's the first time since... 2003? that i sat down and did math. usually i just go with a 'well i think i have this much' mentality, and apparently that works better. oof.) and some things i'd thought went through hadn't, and either way, it was clearly a no-go, cause i was already in the negative, the bank charged me $30 every time i overdrew (three times -- $90!! highway robbery!! i am clearly already poor, you jerks!), and i don't have a credit card, so i was not ordering a suit any time soon. but then jon came to the rescue and ordered it for me, and i guess it arrived today. so i am still nervous because i could not try it on, so here's to hoping it fits and/or looks good! (ps, it is the sparkler flyback in red: http://www.speedousa.com/index.cfm/fuseaction/products.detail/categoryID/44c7b34d-d192-4b75-b573-f7cd91645012/productID/f62e1cdc-6eb1-4e52-9bd7-4b337e59b354/ it wasn't my favorite just in the pictures, but on my personalized model it looked really nice, and the color i think will be okay with my skin & hair. i did like the pink too, but we went with red.) i am hoping it looks decent, cause i don't have time (or money -- i get paid thursday but until then i am in the neg!) to order another one, and the selection in the stores i've been to is less than satisfactory.

so. we're about done here, which means i'll be leaving, and no longer writing, but i have one last bit to impart your way: jon told me about this sweet website and i have been perusing it off and on today. it is abandonedbutnotforgotten.com, and it is pictures of all these abandoned places/things that people have gone and photographed.. houses, factories, ghost towns, schools, insane asylums, theme parks, highways. it's pretty cool (and creepy) to see some of them.. and weird! like there's one asylum that still has curtains up in it, and one ferris wheel that's almost completely grown over. jon said there's some that have tables that are still set, and some that show you how much it keeps getting rotted/old over the years. i've still got plenty to see, but i'm mainly looking for ghost towns, cause the whole idea of a ghost town just seems so interesting to me. a whole town built and then abandoned.. i want to go to one someday, i just think it would be so cool. but then i do love history, so.. not shocking, right? haha.

anyway. that's a good something to check out if you're bored, cause it's pretty interesting.
ttyl kids.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

on a fantastic new game

i am exhausted. last week was ridiculously busy at work, and then this weekend was ridiculously busy too. the week blew cause they made me work super hard for my money, which is a BOOO cause they don't pay me much so that's annoying. the weekend was good, but a little less busy would have been nice. i did, however, get to see sarah and iain -- twice!! so i was pretty stoked about that. i don't have too much time right now, so i think i'll leave all of that for another post another day, and instead i will simply tell you about the game that sarah & iain told us all about and that we subsequently went out, bought, brought to our friends' house, played and loved. well at least i loved it, haha.. i thought it was hilarious. i didn't actually ask jon, but i'd assume he liked it as well, since he was laughing and since he won like 3 times. yeesh.

so. it's called apples to apples, and there are two kinds of cards, red & green. the red are nouns and the green are adjectives. each turn, one person is the judge, and this also rotates with each turn, so it's fair. the judge turns over an adjective card, and every other player throws one of their 7 noun cards -- whichever they think fits with the adjective the best, is the funniest, etc. -- face down so it's anonymous, and then the judge picks whichever one they liked the best, for whatever reason they want. you don't even have to offer any reasoning, you just pick whichever you want. so you can bypass 'beauty & the beast' for 'sappy' and pick 'popcorn' if you think it's funny or you just like the idea of sappy popcorn. so then whoever's noun card got picked gets to keep the adjective card, and the goal is to get to a certain number of adjective cards (the number changes depending on the number of players). and each round, the judge becomes the next person, and everyone takes another noun card so they have more choices (you always have 7 cards). some of the examples that i won for are charismatic golf-ball sized hail and chewy mahatma ghandi. there's also a bunch of variations that you can play too, like the quick draw, where you can throw two cards if you can get them down faster than someone else can get one down -- the first four cards (or however many people are playing, or just four if you want to pick an arbitrary number) to hit the table are judged, regardless of who threw them. and then there's a bunch of others that i can't remember right now but that i like; i think it's a good idea to have easy variations of a particular game so you don't get too bored. but it's really a funny game, and you can totally play to the judge by picking a card/combination you think they'll like.. with sarah, eli, jon & myself, it was mostly all pick the funniest, but that worked out for us cause then it was all just hilarious. the only problem i saw was that sometimes when it was my turn to judge, i'd have the perfect card in my hand, but you can't throw it cause you're the judge. burn! it worked out, cause i wanted to use 'golf-ball sized hail' for 'dainty', but when i threw it for 'charistmatic', sarah laughed so hard she cried, so it worked out pretty well. and i had nothing for 'chewy' which is why i went with 'mahatma ghandi' -- i figured i'd throw the most ridiculous thing i had, and i ended up winning the card, haha.

so yeah. i totally recommend this game. it's up there with cranium in my top list of funniest games to play. you can find it at most stores that carry games.. we bought it at wal-mart for $25, which is a big expensive, but it's the party pack, so it came with a ridiculous number of cards: 749 red cards, 249 green cards, 10 blank cards (do-it-yourselfers!), 2 card trays, and the rules (which include the section on different ways to play), so i guess it'll be worth it.. i'm sure with a smaller version you might run into the same cards over and over again, whereas with this many cards, there's a better chance of finding new combinations all the time.

you can learn more here (there are bible, british isles, german, yiddish and jewish editions!!): http://www.otb-games.com/showcase/apples.html

and you can see what our box looked like here (aka, to the right), to help you search for it in stores.

go forth, buy, laugh, and thank sarah & iain!