seas the day!

so. my cousin is writing a book, and i am totally riding her coattails to stardom and fame. or at least to money, haha. her book is totally going to be a bestseller, and i am totally cashing in on said success by being her editor. woot!
no but for real, she's a fantastic writer. and i am happy and proud to be her editor, and i am excited for the process. she's 20-30 pages in right now, and i think it's great already. i suppose i could be counted as biased, being her cousin and friend, but i don't think it's that. i really think it's good. i was wanting to read something the other day, and you know how when you want to read, you start searching through things you have that you can read and you feel a little thrill when you remember something new that's good that you have to read? and you get excited because you want to jump back into the story and find out what happens? i had that when i thought of her story. and then i felt crushing disappointment because i can't read it yet cause it's not done, but that's another matter, haha.
it's fun, though, reading her story and being part of the book-writing process. she sends it to me after she's written a few more pages and i read it and ask questions or comment or praise or whatever. right now we're just trying to make sure the plot meshes, is continuous and makes sense. i figure once she's finished writing it, i can fly out to arizona and we can go over the little grammar stuff together. hopefully by the time she's done writing i can afford to fly out there. she's next on my list of places to visit anyway; i've been wanting to go there for years and just can't afford it. so it would be swell to go there, see her, edit the book, see arizona, etc.

on an unrelated note, i am still stalled in ... life, i guess. the decision of nursing school is still hanging around, unmade. i have to admit that my heart's not really in it, and i suppose it should be. i am trying to figure out if it could be in it if i came up with a certain direction to go within said field as opposed to just the generic 'nursing.' i do still feel crappy about not making a difference in the world and/or helping people, but i dunno what to do. i feel like i'm sort of just wandering aimlessly in an abyss of nothingness. (i'm not sure how you'd wander purposefully in an abyss, but..)

i just feel.. unfulfilled. i am so tired of this stupid job. it's really sucking my soul into a big ugly black hole (no rhyme intended). and now this whole new software system is driving me bonkers. it's not so bad itself minus the occasional super slowness (the pace is often described as 'glacial' by one of my bosses), but everyone complaining about it is driving me nuts. as is the person who sits next to me, because he asks me the same questions over and over and over again. i am clearly more proficient at said new systems than him; i have been lucky enough to get it pretty easily. knowing that it hasn't been as easy for him, i don't mind helping him, but when he asks me how to do something i just explained to him the day before.... argh. i get mad. and he gets all cranky, because i keep telling him to take notes and being crabby at him. it's just irritating, because i learned by taking notes. every time i learned how to do something, i wrote it down. and then every day when i came to work, i pulled out my sheet of notes and would leave it on my desk for referrals until i felt i didn't need it anymore. but it's still in my desk drawer just in case. i have decided, i think, that i am not going to answer any more of the same questions. because i have told him to take notes like 7 times now. so i will be like, 'oh, i already told you how to do that. check your notes!' and then i will ignore him.
sigh.

on the plus side, my mom got me (and jon) this cute sign from cape cod that has a beach with a sand castle on it and it says "Seas the day!" and it makes me happy to look at it. (i took a picture of it and made it the background on my phone.)

anyway, i'm still at work and my break is up, so i will go do work-related things, i suppose.
(boooo)
but at least it's wednesday! woot for a half-over week.