well, it started way back in high school, and i'm pretty sure it's done now, all these years later. the reason i haven't posted a lot is because things have sucked even more than usual lately and i didn't have anything to say worth writing about. jon and i have been fighting for a couple weeks now. it's a long story, one i don't particularly feel like telling right now, but mostly i think it dragged out over a couple weeks because of my stupid job and because we don't see each other during the week so we couldn't fix it. and now i am pretty sure we broke up, and unless things change over the upcoming week, i am supposed to move out saturday.
which sucks, frankly. i have no desire to do this. i think it's the stupidest thing either of us has done. but i can't seem to convince him. so unless all the problems in his head (which are according to him what is causing all of this) go away within a week, i don't know if it can be fixed. i told him if i leave, i am not coming back. i've done it once, i'm not playing that game with him again. i hope. i don't want to do this a third time. but i also don't want it to be over right now, so i don't know. maybe he'll come back, maybe i'll break down and let him, maybe we'll just break up.
either way, it's probably safe to say don't expect to see any posts anytime soon. i don't know how to be monica without jon anymore, so i imagine the next few weeks are going to suck, and i can't imagine i'll have a lot to say. i'll try to update when i'm not feeling horrible, but i don't know when that's going to be.
sorry, and love to everyone.
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